You'll miss me when I'm gone.

I'm sorry I'm overthinking again.. Cried yet again, sigh :c Been a long time since I last cried, and everything is beginning to start all over again.. :c Really dk what has been on your mind these days. Everyday, I'm just so afraid any moment, you would just explode, and then we would quarrel again.. I really wish th peace could come back. Urgh, why do I miss things so much. We did it for a week of peace :) But now, since monday, its been quarrels after quarrels.. Its tiring, it tires me out, fuck me mentally and emotionally. Stress from everything. Studies, friends and you. Stress from you ? Yeah :c Just being afraid I would be th one who pull th trigger from you.. Why does everything look so different when we're out of your house ? Sigh :c Imissyou baby, I really do. Iloveyou a lot, loveyou to th most that I can. But do you still love me, like how much you love me from th start ? Did your love for me fade ? I really dk.. :c Why am I even having these questions in my mind ? I shouldn't even be doubting your love.. There's no answer to these questions. I'm craving for th answers from your mouth, but it'll lead to another quarrel.. I'm tired.. Last time, how your 'goodmorning' text would always be th first thing I see on my phone. Those long messages on timings like 1111. Those long good night messages from you. I really miss all of those... Why. Why do things have to change ? I'm sorry I miss them when they dont exist anymore..

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Hiiee readers ! Common test is finally over ! Awwhh yeah ! :) One term down, 3 more terms to go :c Sec 2 life, stress ah stress :c 3 more terms, then sec 3. Gawddddd, time please slow down :< Currently still slacking alot :3 Ehehe d: Gonna buck up soon :) ! Yay. Had a day spent w my awesome bitch at compass <3 Heade to Mac to have ice cream, then went to walkwalk around compass where we saw a lot of nczens and we judged a lot x) Ahahhaha d: That's what me and my bitch do :3 Its been so long since I went out w friends :c Hmmm.. :c

Gonna turn 14 in about 2 weeks time ! :) I want le pressie(s) ah readers :b x) And then Queenie said she'll wish me happy birthday before baby does d: Wonder how she's gonna do it though x) Ahahah.

2 more days to 4th monthsary w baby ! ^^ <3 Time really flies ! :) We've been through so much, ups and downs, and we're still standing strong :) And we'll lastforever x) Ehehehehe d: Things hasn't been going smoothly recently, but yeah, things will get better soon ! :) I believe :) Sigh, 1st anniversary can't spend it w him since its on a sunday :< MEHHHH :c That's sad :c Through all these hard times, le bitch has always been there for me. Thankyou xiaotong ! :D Thanks for being my listening ear, thanks for enduring my fucked up attitude at times, thanks for hearing my lame jokes, thanks for everything :) ^~^

We fight. We cuss. We kiss. We hug. We text. We talk. We argue. We laugh. We smile. We love. That's just us :)

Some people just dont appreciate.

- Hey there bitch , would you just stfu for a day ? Wow , I'm so glad I ain't sitting beside you or smth . Else I'll just explode one day . Bitchplease , stop showing off that you're good or smth . I know you've got tuition , need show off ma ? -.- Bitchplease , I also got tuition right ? Fuckyou , people want do work peacefully also cannot . Keep over there make noise , cheebai . People also want try do th work themselves , why do you need to extra come help ? Also never ask you right . Even if need help also ask cher , also not you ._. Seriously bitch , you be her dog , idgaf . But why must you come extra when I'm w her -.- ? Zzz . And then what , push me away , LITERALLY , to stand beside her ? Seriously , fuckyou . -

Another update ^^ ! Heh :3 All thanks to Shanel that remind me bout my dead blog x) Ahaha :b Shanel , happy I'm posting now :b ? More for you to stalk right :3 ? Bwhahahaha :b

Training was funnn today ^^ ! Together w th sec 1s :) Sadly, my deardear junior no come cos she's injured D: Okay anyway, sad life for th sec ones luhs :3 First training jiu Saturday >< And then PT was so xiong :3 But th rest was quite slack luhs :) Heehee :b Headed to roxy square steamboat for dinner, and ofcourse, planned to meet baby there x) Heehee :b Yeah, still thought can meet him in parkway as well, but fate didn't let us meet. High hopes, lead to higher disappointments yeah :/? And I guess I'm pms-ing cos Ive got no idea why I'm sad ._. Gawd, this is bad :c

I'd love you for a thousand years.

Fuck fake friends.

Hello lovelies ♡ Ahaha, idk if you guys still stalk my blog or something x) But, sorry for th lack of post >< ! Have been really busy lately, w hwks and yea, accompanying my boyf x) Sec 2 life, stress la wtf. Gawddd, I miss my Sec 1 life, give it back to me :c Now everything is like STUDY STUDY STUDY. Gahh, I won't get a break till O levels are over :/ Streaming year this year, parents want me to get into thriple sci, but, its like so stress :/ :c Idk as well, all I got to do is to just study hard and make as many choice available for myself :) Heehee :) So, recently, I broke my specs, yet AGAIN :< Second time I've broken my specs in secondary school :/ And now, my frane is yellow ^^! I've got 3 colour frames now :D Purple, white and yellow :D Meow, I'm so colourful x) Can't wait for 8 Feb yoh :b ! Finally meeting my 6A'11 since dk how long already ;3 Really wanna see how tall th 'grown-up' guys are :3 Heh :b Boyf coming along as well x), hope it won't be awkward though x) Celebrating like dk how many people's bday on that day lor :3 But still, damn excited ^^ Though it's already 2013, I still miss 2011, how things used to be, how 6A was so bonded, how simple life used to be. Now, everything sucks :/ My class sucks too, like seriously, totally NOT bonded, le sigh :c Gonna find one day to go Nex buy Iphone accessories w baby :) ! Probably getting couple cover :) :D

Yay, update on yesterday ^^ Hmmmm, yesterday was kinda.. Great day for me :)? Heh :3 two seperate maths lesson, but time passed so fast :b School was, okay.. But yea, who's school doesn't have bitches ? x) Bitches in my class, school, everywhere :c Okay, bear w it luh huimin, you've got to get use to it. Blabla. Ponned tuitionnn :D And Imma proud of it x) Ahahhaa :b Ponned tuition so went to baby's house and slept x) Heh :b First time I ever did this, bwhahaha ^^

Ohwell, here's probably a lil note for my deardear boyfriend x) : Heylo baby :* Rawr, I love you :) Heehee ^^ Thankyou for everything, everything that you've done for me, enduring my attitude at times >< Smile okay baby :)? Tomorrow's gonna be a better day so keep smiling :) ! Muackxx ^^

You're th reason to my smiles :)

Tell me the truth, even if it hurts.

Spent most of th days this week w my silly baby, 121212 was th most enjoyable one ^^ :)

- 101212, Monday :)
1st monthsary w my babyy :) Met him at around 1215 then went to his house nuaaa x) Monthsary present from baby was awesomeee ^^ Rawr :) Then was training at stuff, nothing really special after that :3

- 121212 Wednesday ^^
For th first time, wasn't late to meet baby, just in time ^^ Heehee :b At least managed to spend 12:12 121212 w him on mrt x) Took 372 from compass, saw ex-tuition mate that I haven't seen for ages :B Thenthen went to training which was soso, had to bear th whole training w my stomach ache :( Settle dinner at compass w ballers, outside mrt w cup noodles :) Slacked awhile before heading home and then to piano, stomachache was really hurting alot after that :// After piano baby came over to my house pei me all th way till around midnight since parents weren't coming back so early x) Baby was damn cutee when taking care of my deardear stomach, plus wasn't feeling really well :B 121212 was awesome for meeee ^^ ! Yay :) Had a really fun day spent w my baby ^^ Camwhore photos below w baby :)

4 more daysss :)

4 more days before our first month <3 Time really flies :) Rawr ^^

Yesterday - Met baby at cp at around 1220, was late though, got to kick this habit of being late ! >< Thenthen went to his house before heading to school for training. Training was kinda slack xP Ended training around 540, went to cp to settle dinner w baby and his friends. Bussed home w baby all th way to Tampines, had time before piano lesson so slacked at my house a lil while before heading to Tamp mart for piano lesson :3 Had a new teacher inside th class, damn awkward >< Reach home then watch tv till parents were home. Received a msg that baby met w accident from Kenneth then shock daoo, for a moment I thought was they were trying to prank me lor :x End up found out it was real :( Baby literally flew out from his bike then injured. Tsk, that stupid uh, remind him dk how many times to be careful already end up still liddat, haishh :B Like small lil kid la he, how old already still race w bike, somemore th pavement wasn't smooth derhh, now got so many cuts plus sprain-ed left hand. Tsktsktsk ! :( Injured till so jialat that he can't text me properly, need Kenneth / Dingxiang help him text :/ Called him around midnight, talked all th way till 1245 when his dad come kpkb :3 Apps a lil while more before I slept :b

Today - Baby was much better, YAY ! ^^ Stubborn kid, don want go see doc :< Suan lerhh :( Supposedly meet baby tomorrow, kns he suddenly remember he got some other event w family derh, re-arrange to next week :/ Next week probably going out w Jesslyn as well, GAWDDD, just hope parents gonna allow me go for both luhhh ! >< Following week is ballers Christmas party, thenthen is christmas and then new year ! WAHHH, why do time fly so fastt ? :( Time fly slower leyhh, I wanna enjoy moreee T.T

         I know who I am and I'm happy of who I am with, you can judge me but I don't give a fuck :)

Nothing is easy, everything is tough.

Ohmygoddd, why do people like you even exist ? I mean, even using other people's acc and phone to destroy their rs ? Godd, he trusted you so much yet you're doing this to him ? :o You're being selfish yknow, trying all means to get him all to yourself. Even if you've gotten him all to yourself, will you even be happy ? I doubt so. Why be so selfish when you won't be happy in th end :/ ? Its not worth it at all.
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Yesterday was meant to be a super boring day w/o meeting baby :3 End up w last min arrangement, met up w baby at bball court under my block :) Hehe :) Had much fun balling w baby and cousins ^^ Total ownage when match >< Heh :3 Bully luh :p Silly boyfriend so careless to lose his things, tsktsk :3 Looking forward to Friday ! Hoho, though haven't asked parents bout it :3 Gonna watch BD2 w baby most prob at his house :3 Heh :) December like soo busyyy :( Many events coming upp >< 121212 baby's gonna cook for mee, yay ^^ Thenthen next 181212 ballers christmas partyy, can't wait for that one too :) Busybusy december D: ! Time flies, in a few weeks time, school gonna reopen ! And time to say byebye to all th slackish time :( Gonna study hard for sec 2, streaming year ! Dad wants me go pure science but like so tough only :/ Still gonna try though :3 Shall meet up w qingg soon, go collect my cookies :) ! Hehe :)

ILOVEMYMONKEYYY ^^ :)

You're not perfect, but you're perfect for me.

So long since I last blogged :b >< Okayy start w current updates of my life :D Just came back from Malaysia :) ! Short 5D 4N but it was absolutely funnn ! Didn't talk to baby for 6 daysss, want die alreadyy D: We didn't have th fate to meet each other at Melacca :( Melacca was damndamn funnn, bought stuff for baby when shopping :3 Th friendly matches were fun too, though I did like damn badlyy :/ :( Confirm grown fat after all th food we ate kept entering my stomach plus there was supper D: Butbut th malaysians were rough when playing :< Now got 4 blueblacks on my leg :< Siann. I'm soso gonna miss th fun, joy and laughter we ballers had together, it was memorable ! :)

Super lazy to blog moree :3 But well, shall just do a lil intro on my new boyfriend - Jonathan Tan :) Hehe, he is a pig, stupid and forever bhb-ing :p But still, love him ttm :) Don judge him by his cover, he's awesome :) ^^